Well it's what ever time in the morning before Carnethy 5s and I have a feeling I might not make the race, Why well it's Simple My Name is Norry and I have an addiction I am an Alcoholic and a Drug user., I entered this crazy world of running crazy hills and distances because i was simply crazy.
I needed some thing to occupy the time and I decided i wanted run, not from dealers or the police but from my life, through turning up at a training run believing I could run any distance, which happened to be 26 miles on the WHW with a bunch of people who never knew me, In I ran the full distance with A guy i never knew He stayed with me and I completed 26 miles of running when I had only ever ran 3 mile runs on the canal.
I was shot to pieces after that run, but it gave me something to look forward to and believe in myself, Many people now know me through various races or training runs, and I apoligise now as I am not the person I have portrayed I am. I am a guy who fights daily for his right to be sober and free from addiction.
Yes I have sat and Drank alcohol with many of you, in the pretence that I am just another guy who likes a drink, yes I love a drink really I do, but I was 18 months sober before I started running, I cannot say that now, that is my weekness to try and fit in to various company, that is my down fall I have tried to be maybe some one I am not, I have found a new out let and a new bunch of friends who are amazing people. The people I talk about know who they are, I would like to say sorry for keeping my weekness a secret from you.
I started this blog because I was doing such great things, running mega distances and mad races, I have not blogged in months because I realise that what I do is not special to the people I have come to know and respect,so I dont need to write that I ran 2 mile or 10 mile what I do need to blog about is I am an addict and I Run to escape my life, But it works I run and feel free from my life and my problems.
I have found a way that I can at most times control my life and feel I am Human and that through running crazy shit with crazy people, I believe I am normal. I have fallen tonight in a big way, It's not an issue to anyone bar Me and my family, Oh I have mentioned me family who love and support me whith all there hearts and yet I fall and fail to finish the race. I just want to let them Know that I fight this disease through running and every time I cross a finish line I win a place in there hearts.
Man what am I doing or saying, I dont really know but it's a cry that I am not well, not the person I have led people to believe I am, For that I am truly Sorry, am an alcoholic and an addict and it's all about Me.
You never Know I might just shake rattle and roll on the Carnethy course but then again I may just lie here and face the demons.
Safe Runnings
I needed some thing to occupy the time and I decided i wanted run, not from dealers or the police but from my life, through turning up at a training run believing I could run any distance, which happened to be 26 miles on the WHW with a bunch of people who never knew me, In I ran the full distance with A guy i never knew He stayed with me and I completed 26 miles of running when I had only ever ran 3 mile runs on the canal.
I was shot to pieces after that run, but it gave me something to look forward to and believe in myself, Many people now know me through various races or training runs, and I apoligise now as I am not the person I have portrayed I am. I am a guy who fights daily for his right to be sober and free from addiction.
Yes I have sat and Drank alcohol with many of you, in the pretence that I am just another guy who likes a drink, yes I love a drink really I do, but I was 18 months sober before I started running, I cannot say that now, that is my weekness to try and fit in to various company, that is my down fall I have tried to be maybe some one I am not, I have found a new out let and a new bunch of friends who are amazing people. The people I talk about know who they are, I would like to say sorry for keeping my weekness a secret from you.
I started this blog because I was doing such great things, running mega distances and mad races, I have not blogged in months because I realise that what I do is not special to the people I have come to know and respect,so I dont need to write that I ran 2 mile or 10 mile what I do need to blog about is I am an addict and I Run to escape my life, But it works I run and feel free from my life and my problems.
I have found a way that I can at most times control my life and feel I am Human and that through running crazy shit with crazy people, I believe I am normal. I have fallen tonight in a big way, It's not an issue to anyone bar Me and my family, Oh I have mentioned me family who love and support me whith all there hearts and yet I fall and fail to finish the race. I just want to let them Know that I fight this disease through running and every time I cross a finish line I win a place in there hearts.
Man what am I doing or saying, I dont really know but it's a cry that I am not well, not the person I have led people to believe I am, For that I am truly Sorry, am an alcoholic and an addict and it's all about Me.
You never Know I might just shake rattle and roll on the Carnethy course but then again I may just lie here and face the demons.
Safe Runnings
Norry - it takes a significant amount of strength to come out and to admit publicly what you are battling with mate. I'd like to think that I'm a good judge of character and you my friend, ARE A GOOD MAN! From just the time that we have blethered in the car and on the hills, you can get an understanding of someone and you buddy are not one of these people that cover up to deceive others. Your protecting and battling with yourself and there's certainly no BS from you - what I've picked up on, is an honest and open gent, that welcomed me into his fold. You have achieved so much, from what I understand has been quite a long and arduous journey, within your life mate.
ReplyDeleteYou have a passion buddy and with it comes a large group of friends - stay strong, run strong, run free!
- "Man Hug!"
Tis just a slip Norry Treat it as such and you can get over it. I'm in the same boat and had 5 great years, but started again a few years ago. I think I can drink normally and then bang! I find myself struggling. Like now. But I know what to do and today is another day. Be strong and talk to someone. Then get to that race.
ReplyDeleteNorry, we've never met so apologies for my offering as it may be taken the wrong way. I honestly think you're a strong man and I'll tell you why.
ReplyDeleteI was going to write a post after my first ultra this year and use it to thank three people whom I've never met but who have inspired me recently. That was until I developed this hip injury that will just not clear. So now the year is gone for me but I can still write.....
Richard Cronin would be the first guy. He has an ability to provide humour with his training something I wish I could do. I've never met him but I have a strong belief that his determination would rival anyones.
Dave Troman is the second. His journey last year was awesome to watch from the sidelines but more than anything else it was his disciplined approach to his entire year that inspired me.
And you my man were the other gent I wanted to thank. Your performance at the Devil was amazing given the troubles you endured throughout the year.
What you've done here isn't a sign of weakness buddy. How many other people in life really give their all. Hardly anyone. We are awash with individuals sanitising themselves and their emotions just to fit in with a perceived crowd. BUT the irony is mate, we're all trying to sort our heads out. You have had the strength and courage to speak out and for me this makes you a winner.
All the best bud. Keep fighting. It's really important you do that.
Norry. You are the strongest guy I know. If you are battling this as well you become some kind of awesome. Stay strong. We're all thinking of you. Charlie
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